Its day 3 of the new year and everything seems to be going well. I am very depressed but I’m looking on the bright side, focusing on all the good things that are happening at this point in my life.
My new years resolution was to be happier within myself. I have already started working on doing so. Yesterday I went into the jam packed mall with my head held high. I didn’t have a panic attack, nor did I freak out over the amount of people. I’m very proud, if I say so myself.
I used to eat with my hand over my mouth because I was always scared of what people would think of me eating. If I eat like a pig.. Look funny.. But yesterday I was like eff it. I didn’t put my hand over my mouth once 👍
I go back to work on Monday, which I’m not too excited about, as with most people. But I’m going to do my job and do it to the best of my ability.
Ive decided to run everyday after work and my mum and I are thinking about signing up to a gym. I think I just need a little more time before I go to a gym and let my fat wobble infront of people. Plus, we have our own gym at home. Maybe a personal trainer? I don’t know. Cross that bridge when I come to it.
So even though I am depressed I am looking for that happy place that I so desperately long for. I’m getting there.
Here’s a quote to lift you up:
Have a lovely day ✌️