A Bipolar mind:

I just want to walk right out of my life. No matter what I do, it’s never good enough. The older I get, the less patience I have. I’m so tired of people expecting more from me than I can give. I can’t stand the chaos anymore. I truly believe I’ve been on enough medications to know that where I am is the best I’ll ever be and it sucks knowing I’ve been cheated out of a better life. Worse than that, my family has had to pay the price as well. I’m tired. I’m tired of fighting to find happiness and peace of mind. For me, it has never come naturally. Sometimes I think I’d trade the rest of my life for one week of knowing what it feels like to be happy and have a genuine love of life. 

Night,

AshKaay ✌️

14 thoughts on “A Bipolar mind:

  1. I just recently went through the same thing myself. It’s hard sometimes to stay positive when it feels like everyone is making these demands on your time thinking in their mind it’s no big deal. But when you’re bipolar it’s not easy and no these things do not come naturally. Sometimes I feel like wearing a big sign on my head that says ” Live in my head for 5 seconds…” Hang in there and know you have like minded people out there who get it. Vent away girl! You’re safe in this zone 🙂

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  2. My favorite motto is: dont worry about tomorrow for today has enough troubles of its own. Its helped as i realize that the more i look at my future the more the depression takes over. But focusing on today and what my role is for this moment has helped. I hope it helps you. Praying for you tonight.

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  3. I am in my 60s. My first episode of depression happened the winter my 4 years younger sister was born. I would not trade my life or any of the pain to be “normal” and to have missed out on my richly textured life and the things I have learned because of living bipolar. Hang on tight – you will look back one day and feel empowered. Not only that, you will feel sorrow for normal people’s suffering because they mostly do no’t have the inner resources that you have. I wish you the best. Your honesty with yourself is going to serve you well.

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