“Down Cycle”

I’m on what I call my “down cycle.” I don’t want to do anything, see anyone, talk to anyone, go anywhere or do anything.

I don’t feel sad, I just want to be alone. But, then that urge to be around people kicks in & I don’t know whether I want to be alone or with people. My mind messes with me.

Sometimes when people ask me how I’m doing I just have to stay silent because no words can explain the shit that’s going on in my heart & my mind.

Quick quote:

“Bipolar? Me? I prefer the term ’emotionally action-packed'”

-AshKaay

5 thoughts on ““Down Cycle”

  1. Sometime there is no way to answer ‘How are you feeling?’ I hate it when people ask how I’m doing because if I tell the truth they don’t know what to do, if I lie then there’s no real point in the conversation, is there?
    I sometimes pretend I haven’t heard them, sometimes just do a little head bob and answer by asking how they are, sometimes I just change the subject. None of them are good options; there is no right ot wrong really.

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      1. Yep, I would rather people just didn’t ask me. I’d love it if I could live in a world where conversations only happened if I instigated them; it would cut out a lot of awkwardness in my life, a lot of pointless opening questions that make me and the other person feel like shit but we still go through the pretense of it all.

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