Tablets 

Does every bipolar person get to that stage where they can’t be bothered to take their pills. Or think they’ll do better without them?

Because I’m at that stage. Taking my tablets makes me feel sick. I absolutely despise taking them. They make me feel like an out cast, not normal, different. And yes it’s good to be different but not in this way. 

Taking my tablets in front of friends is horrifying. Going out to a club is horrifying, people ask, “why aren’t you drinking.” I say I don’t feel like it but they try & force you to. Then you end up telling them the whole story. “Because I take tabs,” “why?” “I’m bipolar” & so on & so forth. 

Quick quote: 

“Be careful who you open up to. Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious.” -Anonymous 

💕AshKaay

21 thoughts on “Tablets 

  1. From what I have seen, yes, it is normal to start feeling better and think you do not want the pills. I think it is also normal to NOT want to take the pills at all. It is a slippery slope. Make sure you have a health care professional you can trust, a friend, good alone time, and maybe even a loving pet! I wish you the best in this…I know it is HARD, but you are worth the effort!

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  2. I was determined that I would not be on pills forever. I would constantly ask my doctor if I could start weaning off. He would say that I was doing good and we shouldn’t “rock the boat”. I am now down to a very mild dose of my mood stabilizer and I am on cymbalta for pain and depression (this one I want to lose for sure). There was a time (or two) where I did try to go off my meds by myself and bad things happened so I just learned to live with it. As for drinking, I would just tell people that I chose not to – it wasn’t my thing. It worked out good for the most part because I became the designated driver!

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  3. I get to a point where I just want to stop taking them because I haven’t been able to find a cocktail that works. As far as the drinking goes, I have friends that know that I’m not supposed to drink based on what I take and they still try and force drinks on me. I guess it’s always a lose-lose situation however being the “designated driver” is a great way to keep from having that situation come up.

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  4. I so feel you on this! I just recently went through a meds change that didn’t go over so well. Things are balancing out now but the whole experience just makes you so fed up with taking pills. There are days I think “Maybe I’m not really bipolar” Because sometimes it seems like the meds are making things worse but I can safely say after my most recent experience it’s important to keep them in check. Whatever you do, don’t do what I did and try to be your own doctor.

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  5. It’s strange that actual medication feels more taboo than self medicating or using illegal drugs. I think every person who has been on these meds has this occur at some point. I know I did, several times, each time I swear it will be the last. Each time after, I’m proven wrong. Do what you can to motivate yourself to stay on it, it keeps you stable if it is working right.

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  6. I’ve also been considering asking my psychiatrist about coming off Lamictal. I requested the drug in the first place as I felt I was depressed and have a family history of bipolar with a hospitalization when I was a teenager, 15 years ago. But I was also drinking heavily at the time I asked for it. I now have over 7 months sober and my mood is largely stable. I’ve never been formally diagnosed as bipolar and sometimes I think if anything the Lamictal is making me hypomanic which it is known to do. I consider drugs to be a tool of last resort and with diet, exercise, meditation, therapy, and group I’m not certain the drug is needed anymore. So I can relate to where you’re at, AshKaay.

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  7. I figured out when I was a teenager that when I would take one brand of multivitamin I would have energy, and if I didn’t or took a different brand that I wouldn’t. It became simple that to be the person that I wanted to be I had to take the pills, but I couldn’t swallow them. So I started chewing my multivitamins.

    Have you ever chewed a multivitamin? They taste absolutely awful, but it is what I had to do to be the person I wanted to be. Later in life I started thinking of them as prayers. Every time I take one it is like I am asking God to make me a better person.

    I never was much into drinking alcohol. It was mostly at family gatherings and a beer after working in the back yard. I always was the designated driver. If someone can’t understand that you don’t drink, I would question if they are really a friend.

    I am weird, I know. 😉

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    1. Not to be rude but a multi vit is on a different level to taking 15 tablets day & night. I do understand what you’re saying though. I do pray to God about it, maybe it will get easier in time. Thank you for your input, always grateful x

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      1. That was when I started. I did forget to mention that lately I have been taking about eight, three times a day. I take about half a dozen digestive pills each meal. Then there is ones for depression, allergies, etc. Oh, and because I am intolerant to many of the fillers they use, mine all have to be custom made. It is very expensive.

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  8. From my experiences yes. Even before my diagnosis when I was younger on meds one I got into a high I gave up my meds because I was ‘all better’ yeah it was just an illusion created by a bipolar high for me.

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  9. It took me over ten years to find something. I am now on Latuda 60 mg. So far, so good. I am also pregnant. So, I am worried about my baby. But I have a good team of doctors. Don’t feel like an outcast. I’m with you. 🙂

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  10. Also, a lot of bipolar people have B12 and D vitamin deficiencies….so make sure they are giving you a full blood panel. It will help you to know which vitamins to take.

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  11. God yes. And I’ve been on and off meds for 8 years, have an episode get medicated get better stop. 6 months or so later, boom, again. I’m starting lithium now though so it’s going to have to be long term, I’m trying… and I’m terrible I drink on my meds.

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