Category Archives: Cherish

Dad

“A daddy isn’t defined as the man who makes the child, but rather a man who extends his hands and time to help raise the child and gives his heart and love to the child. BLOOD doesn’t always make you a DADDY. Being a daddy comes from the heart. Any fool can make a baby, it takes a man to raise a child”

My dad is amazing, he is always there for me. He is my dad, not my biological father but my dad!

He means more to me than the asshole, who was involved in bringing me into the world, ever will.

No matter what the circumstance he is there whenever I need him. My mum & I both have bipolar & I know it takes its tole on him but, he has always stuck by both of us & I know he always will.

My mum & dad are the only two people in my family who haven’t let me down & I love them more each & everyday for it.

My dad may not be my biological father but he is my DAD & always will be. 



💕AshKaay 

Today

“Bipolar disorder is like a thief. 
It steals and never gives back.”

I really feel shitty. My boyfriend goes to work in Zimbabwe for 10 days on Wednesday. I don’t know what I’m going to do without him.

Luckily I see my psychologist on Thursday so it’s not so bad. 

I’m tired constantly and I’m so over it right now. I’ve been good – haven’t been sleeping in the day. But, I think today I deserve a nap! 

I just this second got a whatsapp from my mother in law asking if I want to go pick out a bath & lots of new things for the house we are building on the farm. I can’t turn that down cause I love interior decorating. But there’s always a catch. Lunch with our pastor & his wife!

Any prayers for no panic attacks would be greatly appreciated.

Quick quote:

“He who kneels before God, can stand before anyone.” 

Have a good day,

💕AshKaay 

Church

I went to church today. Yes, me. Church. That has over 100 people. I didn’t even feel the need to take a rivotril! I took notes & sang the hymns. 

To be honest I’m quite proud of myself.

I’ve got a killer headache & didn’t sleep very well last night but I feel so alive today. More than I’ve felt in a long time! I think the Holy Spirit is working within me 🙏.

Incase you haven’t heard this today:

  1. You’re beautiful 👸👱
  2. You’re loved 💗
  3. You’re needed 👥
  4. You’re alive for a reason 👣
  5. You’re stronger than you think 💪
  6. You’re going to get through this 🙏
  7. I’m glad you’re still alive 😀
  8. Don’t give up 🌟
  9. Be positive 👍
  10. I care 👯👬

Nap time 😴

💕AshKaay 

Thank you Lord!


Dear Lord,

Thank you for all the people on WordPress that helped me get through last night. They really helped me.

I pray that you bless all of those people. Thank you for leading me to WordPress. Thank you for leading me to people who understand what I’m going through and who can help me.

I pray that this year all of us sufferers and everyone all over the world that they have a blessed year. 

Amen

Thank you for all the support last night to the people who commented with amazing advice. I really feel understood and I feel like I fit in! 

Inbetween tipsy & sober!

So, it’s 5am and my boyfriend are sitting by the dam. We have been here since 2am.

We’ve been drinking a bit of brandy and coke and a bit of OBS! 😛

It was such a fun idea to come out to our dam and just relax. Just the two of us. No one to bother us. We haven’t even looked at our phones until now. Just been in good deep conversation.

Scott is now taking a 10 minute nap while I update you guys! ha ha.

We’ve been sitting on our new camping chairs (they’re lovely, btw) and under our gazebo! It’s been one of the most relaxing times since Christmas! 

Our little darling Faith is with us and has gotten full of mud & wet sand from roaming around. And, whose lap does she want to sit on? Yes, that’s right. Mine. So now my lovely lilac pjs are covered in dirt. 

We are building a house that can sleep 8 people on our farm, with a jetty that goes out onto the dam! Cool hey!? I’m so excited for it to be finished. 

Anyway, I better wake Scott up so we can go and get in bed and have a few hours kip!

Another post coming up later in the day. 

Hope everyone has a lovely morning. Love, Ashley-Kaay, Scott & Faith 🌞

Inspiration

So, it’s the 2nd day of the new year & so far everything’s been going well. My nieces, sister & brother-in-law are on their way here for the weekend.

I thought I’d share some quotes to lift anyone that’s down in the dumps up! 

Enjoy the rest of your day & put smiles on all of your faces. Everyone is beautiful! 

“A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.” 😊