Category Archives: Embracing

Happy&Sad

So today I have mixed emotions. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. 

My tabs made me sore again this morning. Which was crap!

I know things have been going downhill for me for awhile now. But I suppose you have to go through the hard times to get to the good ones!

Quick quote:

“Life is like a piano. The white keys are happy moments & the black keys are sad moments. But remember that sweet music is only possible when both the keys are played together.”

Have a nice night,

AshKaay

You are not your illness

You have an individual story to tell. 
You have a name,
A history,
A personality. 
Staying yourself is part of the battle.

Your illness does not define you. It’s a part of you but it’s not you!

Quick quote:

“I have come to believe that caring for myself is not self indulgent. Caring for myself is an act of survival.”
-Audre Londe 

Good morning,

-AshKaay

Thank you Lord!


Dear Lord,

Thank you for all the people on WordPress that helped me get through last night. They really helped me.

I pray that you bless all of those people. Thank you for leading me to WordPress. Thank you for leading me to people who understand what I’m going through and who can help me.

I pray that this year all of us sufferers and everyone all over the world that they have a blessed year. 

Amen

Thank you for all the support last night to the people who commented with amazing advice. I really feel understood and I feel like I fit in! 

Guests 😞

Aghhhh! We have guests over for supper! 

That means my mom-in-law is doing the cooking & I’m doing the baking (which I love) but I can’t work in this bloody kitchen. It’s sizzling hot!

As you may know from my previous posts, I don’t like people! Due to my Social Anxiety Disorder!

But, you know what! I’m going to be brave. I’m going to overcome this disorder in the name of the Lord! I will make it through this evening without a panic attack because I know that my Father is looking over me!

Time to get my bake on, Malva Pudding & Nutella Brownies!

I got the brownie recipe of Pintrest. It’s so easy. Here it is: 

Inbetween tipsy & sober!

So, it’s 5am and my boyfriend are sitting by the dam. We have been here since 2am.

We’ve been drinking a bit of brandy and coke and a bit of OBS! 😛

It was such a fun idea to come out to our dam and just relax. Just the two of us. No one to bother us. We haven’t even looked at our phones until now. Just been in good deep conversation.

Scott is now taking a 10 minute nap while I update you guys! ha ha.

We’ve been sitting on our new camping chairs (they’re lovely, btw) and under our gazebo! It’s been one of the most relaxing times since Christmas! 

Our little darling Faith is with us and has gotten full of mud & wet sand from roaming around. And, whose lap does she want to sit on? Yes, that’s right. Mine. So now my lovely lilac pjs are covered in dirt. 

We are building a house that can sleep 8 people on our farm, with a jetty that goes out onto the dam! Cool hey!? I’m so excited for it to be finished. 

Anyway, I better wake Scott up so we can go and get in bed and have a few hours kip!

Another post coming up later in the day. 

Hope everyone has a lovely morning. Love, Ashley-Kaay, Scott & Faith 🌞

So far, all is well

Its day 3 of the new year and everything seems to be going well. I am very depressed but I’m looking on the bright side, focusing on all the good things that are happening at this point in my life.

My new years resolution was to be happier within myself. I have already started working on doing so. Yesterday I went into the jam packed mall with my head held high. I didn’t have a panic attack, nor did I freak out over the amount of people. I’m very proud, if I say so myself. 

I used to eat with my hand over my mouth because I was always scared of what people would think of me eating. If I eat like a pig.. Look funny.. But yesterday I was like eff it. I didn’t put my hand over my mouth once 👍

I go back to work on Monday, which I’m not too excited about, as with most people. But I’m going to do my job and do it to the best of my ability. 

Ive decided to run everyday after work and my mum and I are thinking about signing up to a gym. I think I just need a little more time before I go to a gym and let my fat wobble infront of people. Plus, we have our own gym at home. Maybe a personal trainer? I don’t know. Cross that bridge when I come to it.

So even though I am depressed I am looking for that happy place that I so desperately long for. I’m getting there.

Here’s a quote to lift you up:

Have a lovely day ✌️

Inspiration

So, it’s the 2nd day of the new year & so far everything’s been going well. My nieces, sister & brother-in-law are on their way here for the weekend.

I thought I’d share some quotes to lift anyone that’s down in the dumps up! 

Enjoy the rest of your day & put smiles on all of your faces. Everyone is beautiful! 

“A smile is a curve that sets everything straight.” 😊