HELP?! Why me? 😭

So the guests have arrived and everything was going fine.

Until it all hit me; the nausea, feeling faint, body aches, a killer migrane and the feeling of throwing up.

I just simply said “I’m not feeling well, I’m going to lie down for a little while.”

But the question is “WHY?”

• Why me?
• Why my life?
• Why does it affect the people around me?
• Why the depression, OCD, social anxiety disorder, bipolar & all the other shit that comes with it?
• Why oh effing why?

I know I put a quote on the other day that says “you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.”

But, right now I don’t feel I am. I’m so angry at myself for failing to do the simplest thing, spending time with guests 😞

I can’t effing take it. Why’s it so hard? Does this really have to be the life of a 17 year old girl?

Advice? Someone please!

Guests 😞

Aghhhh! We have guests over for supper! 

That means my mom-in-law is doing the cooking & I’m doing the baking (which I love) but I can’t work in this bloody kitchen. It’s sizzling hot!

As you may know from my previous posts, I don’t like people! Due to my Social Anxiety Disorder!

But, you know what! I’m going to be brave. I’m going to overcome this disorder in the name of the Lord! I will make it through this evening without a panic attack because I know that my Father is looking over me!

Time to get my bake on, Malva Pudding & Nutella Brownies!

I got the brownie recipe of Pintrest. It’s so easy. Here it is: