“A daddy isn’t defined as the man who makes the child, but rather a man who extends his hands and time to help raise the child and gives his heart and love to the child. BLOOD doesn’t always make you a DADDY. Being a daddy comes from the heart. Any fool can make a baby, it takes a man to raise a child”
My dad is amazing, he is always there for me. He is my dad, not my biological father but my dad!
He means more to me than the asshole, who was involved in bringing me into the world, ever will.
No matter what the circumstance he is there whenever I need him. My mum & I both have bipolar & I know it takes its tole on him but, he has always stuck by both of us & I know he always will.
My mum & dad are the only two people in my family who haven’t let me down & I love them more each & everyday for it.
My dad may not be my biological father but he is my DAD & always will be.
“Bipolar disorder is like a thief.
It steals and never gives back.”
I really feel shitty. My boyfriend goes to work in Zimbabwe for 10 days on Wednesday. I don’t know what I’m going to do without him.
Luckily I see my psychologist on Thursday so it’s not so bad.
I’m tired constantly and I’m so over it right now. I’ve been good – haven’t been sleeping in the day. But, I think today I deserve a nap!
I just this second got a whatsapp from my mother in law asking if I want to go pick out a bath & lots of new things for the house we are building on the farm. I can’t turn that down cause I love interior decorating. But there’s always a catch. Lunch with our pastor & his wife!
Any prayers for no panic attacks would be greatly appreciated.
“He who kneels before God, can stand before anyone.”
Have a good day,
Why the hell wait until Valentine’s Day when you can drink now! Champagne & some nice wine!
Hope everyone enjoys their evenings! Get some love in the air 💞 .
do you ever wish that you could go back to being the ages of 4-10? I do.
Those carefree years, where the shits happening all around you but you don’t give a damn. Horrible things may of happened to you, but the good and the carefree things overcome the memories of the bad and allow you to remember all the fun and exciting things you did.
At that age, no one cares if you have hairy legs, it’s normal. No one cares if you do or don’t wear designer clothes. No one cares if you are full of dirt. No one cares about how you look, what you do, or where you are or live. It’s a beautiful age.
I wish I could go back there, minus the rape and abuse. But those were fun years. Sleepovers with friends, bonfires seemed like the coolest thing on the planet and fireworks were just out of this world at that age.
Building little forts and playing games on the fields. Being cheeky and getting away with it. Ice creams and lollipops from the ice cream truck.
Ahh that age was amazing. Am I the only one that wishes I could be that age again? Do you have memories or things you wish you could still do?
“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of places, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”
Ahh, had a long day today. Passport photos, salon, mall, nursery! But, you know what? I was happy today. Regardless of all the stress.
I’ve got to go back to the nursery tomorrow with my mother-in-law. She also feels like some new plants/flowers.
It’s only 2 days to Valentine’s Day. I’ve got my man some cute things 😝 .
I must say I’m a little bit frustrated at the moment as my boyfriend & I own our own place. But, we’re sleeping at his parents house constantly. It’s really bugging me. But anyway. That’s the way the cookie crumbles 🍪 .
Have a good night, God bless 🙌 .
Like the title says; we can’t make everyone happy. Which is completely 100% true.
I know how it feels when you try so hard for someone to be happy with what you’ve done/achieved/said, etc. and they aren’t. It’s a crappy feeling.
But it’s reality, not everyone is going to be happy with us all the time. So why do we get so worked up when we can’t make these people happy and content? It’s because we try so hard. We try hard for acceptance. To prove to them we are ‘normal’.
It might not be that way for everyone but I know it is for me.
But you know what, we can’t make everyone happy, try & if it fails then at least you know that you put in the effort from your side to try.
Remember you can’t make everyone happy, you’re not a Nutella jar 😛 .
I’ve taken my tablets so if this post isn’t 100%, blame it on them not me 😂 .
Chin up beauties,
Sick of crying,
Tired of trying,
Yes, I’m smiling. ..but inside I’m dying.
I can’t even explain. There’s no words to describe how I feel. None at all. Nada, nix, nothing.
I can’t take all this shit in my life no more. I’m suicidal, depressed, upset.. Constantly.
..and no one understands. Yes people might understand parts of what I’m going through but no one can understand fully.
I’m done. Done trying. Done hoping. Done coping. Just done!
I’ve finally cracked. And it doesn’t look like these peices are fitting back together anytime soon.
So I have my glasses. Feeling quite comfortable in them. I need to get out & show these babies off. Aaahaha!
My dad said they make me look “Smart.” The bugger, as if I’m not smart enough! 😂
Anyway, I’m taking one step at a time in my journey with God. I’m making it serious this time. I’m committing myself to the Lord. I might mess up, I’m guarenteed to sin, but I’m getting closer to our Heavenly Father.
I’m so happy at the moment, plus I slept well last night! Which is a first in a long time!
“Bipolar can make you unstable, but you are still able. Never give up, never give in, you will find your peace again.” -G.E Laine
Hope everyone has a wonderful day, 💕AshKaay
So, I used to be amazingly dedicated to God & my bible.
But I lost my way over the past couple of years with all the stress & handling the diagnosis. I thought God hated me.
I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for God. He is always working behind the scenes in my life, everyone’s life!
So today after going to church for the past couple of months & watching Christian programmes on the tv.
I gave my life to the Lord! I am a born again Christian! 🙌
Praise the Lord!
“Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you” Hebrews 13:5
If we’re not meant to have midnight snacks, why is there a light in the fridge? 😂
Aaah! Am I the only one that gets hungry at night? Just before I’m about to doze off, I feel the need to get up & sneak to the fridge & grab anything that catches my eye.
Last night it was milk tart. 🙊
I am adement that my tablets make me do it. Can this be a side effect of my tablets?
I am on a diet & I’m breaking it at night! It’s so bloody irritating.
Does anyone else have this problem? How do you get round it? 🍭🍪🍫
“Everyday may not be good, but there is always something good in everyday!”